Thursday, May 13, 2010

FML

Writing this is not easy and yet some how I had a gut feeling I would. The ultrasound took place today and it didn't feel right from the moment I woke up this morning. I was nervous as hell and had a sickening feeling in my stomach that things were not going to go as one would hope.

The ultrasound revealed that the pregnancy is ectopic. The baby is snug inside my left tube. As hard as it was to hear I'm actually more terrified of what comes next. Tomorrow morning I will need to check in at 7 am for surgery. They explained the procedure much to my discomfort......and the thought of it all makes me sick to my stomach.

Please excuse me if I take a short break from my blog. I'm at a loss for words and just need time to refocus and somehow figure out where to go from here. Thank you all for your love and support, it's truly appreciated and I couldn't ask for better people to comfort me during this difficult time.

26 comments:

  1. oh, no sweetie. I am so terribly sorry. I will be thinking of you tomorrow. I know there is nothing to say to make it better, but I will be thinking of you and hoping for the best....

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  2. I have no words. I am so terribly sorry for what you're having to go through. I will be praying for you and your family.

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  3. Oh no Patricia! I am SO sorry. I had no idea. I am thinking of you and sending lots of love and positive thoughts. If you need anything, let me know.

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  4. I'm so sorry and I am thinking of you. I hope the surgery is painless and they knock you out good. Take time for yourself and we will be here when you are ready to be back to blogging.
    Hugs.
    LTB

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  5. Patrish,

    I feel like the words "I'm sorry" are just not good enough when you are trying to console someone who has lost a child and now enduring another loss. My heart breaks for you and I will be lifting you up in prayer.

    Take care of yourself sweet friend and be good to "you". Hold your hubby tight and weather this together. Let those of us here shower you with love and compassion, as this is a difficult place to be.

    Again, my prayers are with you and I send more love and many hugs. Just remember "you are not alone, we are walking WITH YOU".

    xoxo
    Andrea

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  6. Oh, hun, I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow (well, I am now too, but you know...) <3

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  7. I am so sorry! There is nothing I can say that will help you feel better. I will be thinking and praying for you guys tomorrow.

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  8. I'm a new friend here, and reading this broke my heart. I am very, very, very sorry to hear this news, and you are in my thoughts and prayers. It will be a difficult time, I am sure, so take all the time you need, and take care of yourself!

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  9. I am so sorry =( Im thinking about you! xoxoxo

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  10. I'm so sorry. That doesn't even begin to cover how heartbroken I am for you. Hoping your surgery goes well tomorrow.

    We're all here for you, whenever you come back. In the meantime, we'll all be saying a prayer.

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  11. I'm just so, so very sorry. I cant tell you how much.

    I'm saying a prayer for you and hope everything goes smoothly.

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  12. oh patrish,
    this is such terrible news and im just aching for you right now. for some reason, i was really worried about you too the other day when i read a post. i know you don't want to hear about how lucky you were that they caught it early, or how bad it could have been if they didn't. i know all that matters right now is that you lost that poor little baby, and let me remember him or her with you tonight.

    im so sorry...i will be thinking of you tomorrow. i know you are in good hands.
    xoxo
    lis

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  13. Patrish,

    I'm so sorry for your loss. It breaks my heart to hear about that your pregnancy is ectopic and that this baby didn't get a chance at this world. I will be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping that the surgery goes as smoothly as possible.

    I found out 3 weeks ago today that my pregnancy was ectopic and I've had a hell of a time coming to terms with it. Please, please feel free to reach out to me via email (ababy4al@gmail.com) or by my blog if you would like someone to talk to.

    lots of hugs and love,
    Al

    (lis sent me over)

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  14. I am so sorry also. I will be praying for you tomorrow.
    Kristen

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  15. I am so sorry for your loss. I have no words to help the pain, but I hope that you can find some peace in the near future. Again, I'm so, so sorry.

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  16. My heart hurts for your heart. Prayers sent your way.

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  17. I'm am so so sorry, my heart is just breaking for you. Please know you're in my thoughts and prayers. Sending tons of hugs and love your way.

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  18. I am so, so sorry. Sending tons of thoughts, prayers, love, and support your way.

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  19. Oh Patrish, words can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. My heart breaks for you. Please know that I am thinking about you and praying for you and your sweet husband. ((HUGS))

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  20. i am so sorry to hear this Patrish. It's just not fair.

    i hope the surgery has gone ok.
    xx

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  21. I'm here from LFCA. The first time we got pregnant after many months of trying it was an ectopic in my left tube. I know the hopeless feeling at the ultrasound, the surgery, and so on and on. You can check out my blog if you want more information on what my surgery was like and such. Or feel free to email me. I'm so sorry and I hope everything goes okay. Hang in there.

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  22. Here from LFCA- I am so very sorry for what you are going through. Take all the time away from you blog as you need to- that is the wonderful-ness of blogging! Everyone is so understanding!
    GOOD LUCK!

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  23. Here from LFCA. I'm so very sorry for what you're going through, and for the fact that you need to have surgery (when the fact that it's ectopic is horrid enough). Hugs to you.

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  24. Here from LFCA as well. I am so, so sorry that you're experiencing this horror. I had an ectopic last November and it was...well, indescribably awful. My thoughts and prayers are with you, and please feel free to reach out if you have questions or want to vent. It's so unfair.

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  25. Oh, honey... I am so sorry to read this ((( hug ))). My first pregnancy was ectopic. It really, really sucked the life out of me for a while.

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